"tests"

as you take steps and leaps into the unknown and into what you feel is right but may be somewhat scary to really assert in yourself and to the world, the universe comes in and has a moment (or a few escalating ones) of like - R U SURE?!

those “tests” where how you used to operate is dangled in front of your face. will you choose it? will you go back to that “safety”? if you choose to stand your ground and say no - doing so can bring up shame for every time that you didn’t. every time you caved and took the blue pill. every time you let yourself down and chose being small instead of being you. every time you weren’t choosing high self worth and healthy boundaries. lemme tell you, it ain’t easy - it’s t r i g g e r i n g .

but. if you breathe for a second in that moment, if you choose to hold the space - to expand that space a bit, and if you turn the perspective around into an opportunity and a beautiful challenge to GROW instead of a “test” to “pass” or “fail” — something magical happens. though you feel raw and tender as hell, you realize you feel STRONG. capable. you find gratitude because the universe is giving you the chance to clear all of that old smallness up and release any of that past conditioning. you are choosing different now. you have your own back. you got this.

this is the discipline of choosing yourself. of learning to trust yourself.

there is SO much of this happening right now as we all change and shift — and invitations are everywhere to step into something different, something new. remember when taking a new path, sometimes you feel lost. but thats normal as you are creating it as you go. come back to yourself and realize, everything is just as it should be. there is a rhythm to this, and a pattern through the disorienting swings.

- a letter to myself, and to you

// art by jenny holzer //