what quarantine was like for me

a bit scattered in the flow with an overall calm & spaciousness.

some wonky moments and distant undercurrents of darker feelings — but feeling more and more centered.

some sense like ceremony in almost every task and day.

i taught myself how to knit, and knit many sweaters and hats. for me, for friends, for family.

i watched everything there is to watch.

i didn’t read as many books as i wanted.

i gardened, but often chose to be lazy instead of to weed.

i slowed down, i looked at nature, i had manic tizzies. i turned off my internet. i turned it back on. i clipped my nails and changed the toilet paper for the hundredth time.

time passed.

i came more into my body. into myself. into my truth. what do i have to lose? why am i not GOING FOR IT? what is holding me back?

i did a lot of work on myself. inner seeking. listening. online workshops and research and sponging of all the information. of astrology, metaphysics.

i fell in love - kind of. i healed love wounds. i let love in. i really gave it a shot. i proved to myself again that i can.

i found more wholeness. more centering in myself. in neutrality. in trust - of all that goes on. trust of you trust o of me. trust of all of it.

i longed to know what my part is to play.

i took my reiki teacher training.

it finally felt right to step out into the world, as the fullest version of me. to own it, to be it, to try.

i found myself here.

what about you?

art by @seanwspellman found via mercado sagrado